Session 1 Assignment
This APP has all my assignments, as well as a random mood checker.
It will graph my mood changes for the next 12 weeks.
See pictures below of the APP that I will be using daily to help during therapy:
Session 1: Introduction and Education Phase
Practice Assignment:
Please write at least one page on why you think this traumatic event occurred.
You are not being asked to write specifics about the traumatic event.
Write about what you have been thinking about the cause of the worst event.
Also, consider the effects this traumatic event has had on your beliefs about yourself, others, and the world in the following areas: safety, trust, power/control, esteem, and intimacy.
Write at least one page on why you think this traumatic event occurred. Write about what you've been thinking about the cause of the worst event.
The cause of the event... I can think of many.
- Not yelling or screaming "No" or "Stop" when my friend was sleeping 15 ft. from me.
- Him
- My decision to spend the night at her house.
- My confusion on whether what he was doing was ok or wrong. (STUCK POINT)
- His family not knowing he had issues.
Consider the effects this traumatic event has had on your beliefs about yourself.
I am controlling. I will never be controlled again. I don't want to look attractive to men. (STUCK POINT) I doubt my decision making skills. I want to be better at work than anyone else, and I want them to know it. I don't know why this traumatic event has had affect on my work, but this has to be the reason. Or maybe it was from the way I was raised...
Consider the effects this traumatic event has had on others.
It is hard for others to "get close" and get to know me. (STUCK POINT) I put others down to make them feel like they are "less" than me. I refuse to hug (STUCK POINT) - it's what I'm known for. I can count people I consider "real friends" on one hand. (STUCK POINT) My husband feels like I'm too controlling. I do not "hang out" or socialize. (STUCK POINT) I cannot sit close to anyone, except my husband. (STUCK POINT) I do not rely on anyone. I am self-sufficient. I like this about myself but it's overwhelming.
Consider the effects this traumatic event has had about the world (safety, trust, power/control, esteem and intimacy).
The world is safe. However, if there ever came a time where my family or I was in danger, I would have no problem emptying a clip into their body. I have had many safety discussions with my oldest, Diesel. He knows what to do if someone breaks into the house, (he takes his brother and they hide in the closet) and I will handle the "bad guy." We live in the country, so I know I will have to solve the problem before the police would make the 15 minute drive here. Guns have gun locks and are hidden, but they are in a quickly accessible spot for me. Because my husband is a firefighter I have to be capable of handling any situation that may arise during the night, or day, when he's gone.
Trust, I don't trust anyone completely. (STUCK POINT) I understand most people are usually trusting, but I have to get to know them well before I trust them enough to "see inside my head."
I am very controlling. I usually am in control of every situation - whether home or work. But this is my main cause of my overwhelmness. I wish I could give up some control, but I would have to trust someone enough to do it right. (STUCK POINT)
My self-esteem is shitty. I don't like to make myself look or feel attractive (STUCK POINT) - unless (very rarely) for my husband. I'm too short, my boobs too droopy, my nose too big, my thighs too big, my hair unstylable, too much body hair, my skin breaks out constantly. I cover my body with loose, comfortable clothes. I hate jeans - too tight. I hate socks, they make me feel like I can't breathe. (STUCK POINT) My wedding ring set is too fancy (STUCK POINT), so I wear a $20 sterling silver band instead. I feel bad when I buy new clothes, unless they're under $10. My most expensive purse is my $40 chicken purse. I think my car is my only self-esteem booster. It's very nice, although the inside is always a complete mess. I'm embarrassed about living in my "manufactured home." I feel like trailer trash.
Intimacy- I only do it for my husband. If I had my choice, I would never have sex or be touched. (STUCK POINT) I try to make sure my husband gets his physical touch 2-3 times a week - for him. I try to plan intimate moments so I don't have that "anticipation"feeling as I get into bed. (STUCK POINT)
